Saturday, February 28, 2015

Grapevine Wasps: A Short Story

Grapevine Wasps
David is a teddy bear with a blue shirt and a big voice.  Some days, his voice ricochets across the thin wood-panelling of our shared house. Other days, it’s husky and faint from exhaustion.
Today, it’s husky and faint.
“Leslie, get down here and gather the clothes off the floor, before they turn to shit.”
A lone lawn mower cuts through the summer haze.
“Leslie….LES-LAAAAAAY!”
I hear pounding footsteps from upstairs.  Leslie’s voice materializes.
“Dad. I’ll do it when I get back. Promise.”
 The thud of the screen door marks Leslie’s swift departure.
David gasps between steps along the basement hallway. His rubber shoes squeak against the soaked carpet. Puddles of black water edge out and then recede back into the pink folds. They’re reminders of the aged plumbing, and the rainy summer. 
David occupies the main floor of our rented four-bedroom bungalow, along with his teenage son, Leslie, and a big black Labrador named Mushka.  He used to be a mechanic, until a heart condition made him unsuitable to work.  David collects disability cheques. His son is about to enter his final year in high school.
Sam and I are his ‘cell mates’, or so he calls us. We live in the basement’s two bedrooms, with a shared kitchen, bathroom and laundry. We pay cheap rent. Just like David.
Every night, David and Leslie fight about where Leslie will live when he goes to college.  Leslie wants to live away from home.  He assures his father that he will pay for rent and tuition with his part- time job at the bank.
 David insists that Leslie will be mooching off his dad soon enough after the first year.  He tells Leslie that it’s better off to stay home for college, to save money.
“Remember what your grandmother says. It’s good to be nice, but nice doesn’t pay the bills. What kind of skill do you have to show the world, huh? Or do you think it’s easy to work and study at the same time?”
David staggers up each creaking step to the main floor. As he reaches the top stair, he pauses to poke his cane into a cobweb buried in the corner.  A lone centipede scuttles up the wall, now evicted from its hiding place.
 “Promise me never to kill the centipedes,” David mutters.  A smile creases his thick lips. “They eat the spider eggs. Population control.”
We both exit the basement’s rear entrance.  David shields his eyes from the harsh sun. He sighs before limping to the open garage.
Bags of clothing, shoes and books line the inner walls of David’s garage.  There is so much stuff in bags that there is hardly any room for a car.
David’s Chevy bakes outside, in the mid-August heat. 
“Tell you what,” David whispers, “Since my ungrateful son won’t help me, why don’t you take these out to the front and put them on display for the yard sale?”
I pause. I remember the stack of library books I need to return by day’s end. I want to avoid fines.
David clears his throat.
“If you can help me schlep this stuff, I’ll give you and Sam ten bucks each. Plus, you both get to choose something from the sale.”
“Okay,” I concede. It’s the weekend. At least I don’t need to work for two days.
But I doubt if Sam is able to help. Sam is a machinist from Sri Lanka. He wanted to be an engineer, but then he dropped out before graduating from university in Sri Lanka. Sam has lived in Toronto for five years. He works strange shifts, smokes a lot, and drinks a lot.
I don’t imagine Sam would have the energy to fold baby clothes, after a long day in front of a lathe.
 I didn’t hear Sam leave this morning. He normally slams the bathroom door and spits out phlegm in the shower. That usually wakes me up. I wonder if he left earlier than usual. I savor the momentary quiet of the empty basement in the early morning.
 David arranges two tables in the front yard. His new girlfriend, Linda, sits primly between the tables. She folds tank tops into neat bunches.
Linda is in her fifties. She wears a black dress with a matching sun hat, to protect her fair skin and bobbed hair.  
Linda purses her lips. She doesn’t look up when David and I unload our bags onto the table.
“Larry, these clothes have got to be over thirty years old.” She holds up a blue and red Spider Man t-shirt. Tiny holes pepper the inner sleeves and shoulders.
I wonder whether they were from moths, or just the wear and tear of children’s play. And I wonder why David’s girlfriend calls him Larry.
David shrugs. “Hey, they will do just fine. Some people think these are collectibles, you know. I see them re-sell it on e-bay.”
“To unsuspecting kids with credit cards,” Linda snarls.
“Hey, it’s an original. And it’s a steal.”
Linda pulls a long face and continues to fold the clothes. Soon they form little coloured bunches across the tables. They look like baby cotton bunnies alongside the musty record albums and old electronic gadgets.
David’s Labrador, Mushka, claws at the screen door and whimpers. David hobbles up the front steps and opens the door. The dog lunges toward David, nearly knocking him over. David wraps his free arm around Mushka and kisses his head.
“My baby,” he cries. His voice fades into the house. The dog follows at his feet. The scratch of claws against linoleum mingles with the tap of the wooden cane.
Cars slow down as the tables fill with more clothes and used articles. But not too many people stop.
The elderly neighbour across the street pauses at her porch. She plops on her chair, puts down her coffee, narrows her eyes in my direction, and thrusts a newspaper in front of her face.
David stumbles back outside with Mushka at his heels. He wears a Yankees baseball cap to protect his face against the sun.  His nods when he recognizes a few of the cars. But some of them look sketchy, especially the dark cars with tinted windows.  David snaps the shades onto his glasses and lowers the lid of his cap.
David parks on a deck chair beside me. I dust off books and stack them up in a row. I try to arrange them in some semblance of order: historical fiction, house-repair, music. There are no philosophy or literary books in the pile. I strain to find something that interests me.
 A stack of romance books fills a big shoebox. Numbers grace their side bindings. A small piece of masking tape binds them together. It reads: set of twenty, fifteen dollars.
I scratch my head. “Where did you get these?”
“I bought them for my ex-wife years ago, when we were young. You know, the good old days.” David rubs his hand across his round hairy potbelly.
David takes out his wallet from his back pocket. He shows me a faded picture of a young couple. David’s face looks unrecognizable, without his sunglasses and beard.
“I don’t know what happened. I did everything I could for Barbara. Took care of her, gave her a roof. What more could I have done?”
David leans toward me and whispers. “You know, you and Sam are lucky. You are used to being by yourselves. It’s been five years now. I never did get used to living alone.”
David gazes at the piles of clothes and antiques. He waves at the passing cars. Nobody waves back.
                “Few years ago, I stopped going to the Synagogue.  Then they complained I wasn’t devoted enough. I’m a single working father. What could I do? I was too busy to go. And tired. But people talk.”
I nod.
“Yeah, yeah. It must be hard,” I say.  
My legs start to feel sore from standing for so long. I rock my heels from side to side.
 I think about the Jewish community of Bathurst and Sheppard, where we live.  Everyone must know each other. I feel lucky to be anonymous.
David looks down at his cane and at the Labrador sitting at his feet. “Now I can’t even work anymore. They think I’m faking all this. I tell them that if I were to walk longer than this street, I would drop dead. But they don’t believe me.”
Mushka levels his sad eyes in my direction. David pats his head.
“He’s got to be the gentlest dog I’ve seen,” I point out. “He doesn’t bark or anything.”
David laughs. “Of course he doesn’t. He’s the only one who doesn’t give me a headache. Doncha, Mushka? You’re my baby, Mushka. Mwa, mwa, mwa.”
David’s eyes twinkle as he strokes Mushka’s silky fur. Mushka sinks beside his water bowl and sprawls his back legs out into the driveway.  Flies swarm around his closing eyes. Muskha’s eyelids jerk and twitch.
The afternoon arrives. People start to come in droves. Many of them don’t intend to buy anything, but they mingle at the tables. A few people marvel at the old transistor radios and Polaroid cameras in boxes underneath the tables. The crowd creates the impression that something is happening.
A young girl in a pink t-shirt and cut-off shorts inspects the book pile. She discovers the ten- volume romance collection and signals to her two girlfriends. The three of them start to giggle and blush.
“How much for these?” the girl asks. She twirls her body around to no one in particular.
“Fifteen,” David says. His face hardly shifts an inch toward the young bidder.
The girls confer with each other for several seconds. A few heads shake, followed by whispers.
“Ten?” the pink shirted girl asks.
“Thirteen,” David snaps.
“Thirteen…such an unlucky number,” The girl strokes her left index finger across her bottom lip. “Twelve fifty?”
“Unlucky for you. I don’t carry coins.” David crosses his arms. “This is vintage romance.  Twelve fifty? C’mon.”
The girls huddle again in a circle. Finally, one open hand emerges from the tussle, with a few crumpled bills and a couple of quarters.
 Twelve dollars and fifty cents.
David hesitates, then whips out his right arm and pockets the money into his trousers.
“You girls should consider yourselves lucky that I’m so nice.” The right side of his lip curls into a half-smile.
The pink-shirted girl marches away with the books across her chest. Her nose cocks up to the sky. She looks triumphant. Her two girlfriends trail behind her.  
“I must have paid twice that much for those damned things. And that was in the sixties.” David strokes his beard.
“I’m sure she appreciates it,” I reply. “She looked all set, like she will never need to date again.”
 “Yeah, well, that’ll buy me dog food for Mushka. And maybe some leftover dog food for myself.”
Sales start to shoot up. People line up and down the tables. They bid and grab their goods. Linda heads inside the house for plastic bags.
Someone asks if Mushka’s water dish is for sale.  David chuckles.  His humor has arisen, like the scorching sun.
                A white van pulls over to the curb. It looks like an armored money truck. The man inside gets out, pauses in front of the clothes, and spots a batman shirt. It must have belonged to Leslie when he was a young boy.
                The man pulls out a five dollar bill and hands it to Linda. He carries the shirt back to his truck and smacks it onto the dashboard like a dishrag. He pulls away with a big grin on his face.
                David looks at me and shrugs.
 “What the hell was that?” he whispers.  
                David is happy again.
                ***
                At sundown, David and Linda truck the remaining clothes and books to the garage and backyard. Linda takes a deep breath and hunches over the picnic table. She braces herself for tomorrow:  Day Two of the annual Yard Sale.
                Sam comes home at quarter to eight. He wears his green plaid flannel shirt and denim jeans. His skinny body droops from exhaustion. He stoops to carry the heavier boxes back. Between the four of us, he’s the strongest. But now, he looks like he is about to collapse.
Sam jokes about trying to apply for a job at Linamar, a popular auto manufacturer on the West end. He grumbles about how the receptionist sang ‘Linamar’ in a cheery voice. He mocks her condescending demeanor.  The job hunt descends into a black comedy.
                David counts the cash in a plain white envelope. He stuffs the wad into his pocket and paces around the backyard.
                “Not bad at all,” he mutters.
Linda leans her head into her left palm.  She gazes at the vines curled around the tressle.
                “Larry, I just don’t get it.” She sneers. “You guys have had these grapes in your backyard, and now look at them.”
We look at the grapes in the falling light. Many have shrivelled into ripened husks. Wasps swarm around the remaining bunches. Most of them look rotten.
“Hey, not my department,” David says. “I can’t eat too many of those things, with my diabetes.”
David looks back at me and Sam. “You two spring chickens should have eaten them long ago. God knows you both need it.”
“Oh,” I pause. “I didn’t know if they’re safe and stuff.”
“Of course they’re safe,” David moans. “They don’t have pesticides. They’re safer than the store bought grapes.”
“Not now,” Sam mutters. “All those bloody wasps probably have diseases. I hate insects. We used to have huge insects in Sri Lanka, where I was growing up. I get sick from bugs very easily. Centipedes, ugh…”
Sam shudders. He shakes his head and staggers down the stairway into his room.
“What a waste,” David says. “I told you guys before. You should have eaten them while they were still free. Nobody gets anything for free anymore. I’m going inside.”
Linda follows David up the stairs into the main floor.
My basement room is cold and musty. I feel the relief of the air conditioning after the humid day. I start to feel burn marks on my bare arms and the tip of my nose. I regret not putting on sunscreen in the morning.
I can hear the sounds of a television set upstairs. Electronic static fills the air. Leslie has returned home with his girlfriend. They giggle in the bedroom. Beeps and gunshots signal another round of video games. The Backstreet Boys play in the background.
“Leslie, I told you to pick the shit off the floor downstairs. Did you do it yet?” David’s voice booms again. The day’s success restores his vigor.
“Dad, not now. I’ll do it tomorrow.”
                “That’s not what you told me this morning! You do it now, or I’m gonna kick you out!”
Footsteps pound down the stairs into the basement. I hear arms clutching at a mass of crumpled clothes. The dryer door slams.
Footsteps amble back upstairs again.  The upstairs door slams.
Leslie and his girlfriend giggle again. The TV volume increases. More gunshot sounds ensue.
David sings a song in Hebrew. His voice overpowers the video sounds. I don’t understand the words at all, but it sounds like opera. I make a note to ask him the meaning one day. I am certain that the song is religious. Its beauty surrounds me. 
The house fills with mercy.





Creative Writing Group Poems- August 14 2013

The Fading of a Dream
and into something more real
fake grass on an outdoor patio
with drinks of sweet tea to soften the loss
of steps not taken and steps overstepped
staring down into a spiral of outworn sorrows.

and into the party scene of trophy memories
linked arm-in-arm with felicitous gestures
jokes, semi-serious, half-profound, half laughing
heartily stalling a painful feeling.

shadows chase me now in this stony castle
where I barricade myself in corners of straw
you and I no longer feel through the photos there
proof that we had loved once and taking me to a warm  place
a small blanket, enough to cover the legs

and arms, or even a torso, but not the whole body.



A Creation Story
I leapt into a star and couldn’t get out of it
it was hot and stifling, like being in someone else’s dream
when people saw me, I become my own spectator
a telescope turned inward into an eternity

I came out as a wave and nourished many life forms
from crustaceans to trilobites, up a scale of emergent complexity
I watched crusaders clash and vie for the living air
while waiting for the sea to evaporate into the cloudless sky

life is all around struggling for survival
my tears are but the salty foam that gives them courage
my warmth keeps them vibrant while they do battle
yet I am the mirror in their eyes

I am the fire, the water, the air and stones
I am Medusa inverse, a being who somehow survived
and braved the terror of reflecting my own struggle.

Caving In

I fall when I see your words
You must be joking, then---

The words just aren’t there,
 they are looked deep inside this stone
I am floundering to show you how I feel

I am terrified that you will hurt me more
But who is this ‘me’?
                Couldn’t I just leap and let go?
Nothing is so clear to me anymore

All Four Corners

Out on the streets, you strike quite the discord
Green pants and some other colored melange of gold and silver brocade
Silken auburn hair to top the elaborate accoutrements
A pricy pattern clashes with the indistinct greys of the city
You meet Mr. Parker on the corner of Struggle and Strife

You are emitting a perfume that nobody can recognize
And are everything that isn’t a cliché, with none to lose.
Did 2320 A.D. take an inclement turn?
Only you and your doctor will ever learn.

Your people are on a mission that has no return ticket
You’re an anthropologist who just happens, by chance, to blend in
And what you bring with you is your strident laugh—
A ticket to all the four corners of this universe

One day you wake up to realize
That you don’t belong in the future or its past
You are somewhere in the crux of two cultures
And you don’t know where you’ll scatter yourself on the return trip
Some molecules dispersing in cloud rivulets
And some even make it to Aldabra

Between the moons of Mars
 and the spiral arms that hold you
Where then will you stand?
You take a chance and dissolve backwards
into the heavenly plan


A Cafe, Yonge/Sheppard

this rhythm has no focus
where am I?
the screen upon which we project our latest fears?
and who am I?

the sounds, the sweetness, the smell of coffee
lingers in the horizon of experience
the wriggle of the pen, a solid book, a table brown and hard
again, what do we make of it?
immersed in the space of things, the very time of night
the this, the thus, the uncanny in-this-seat
a sparkling champagne half-moon overseeing the all

calm autumn breeze with no place in particular to go
the details dissolving into static on the radio
steadily, this time, this place, not to be emulated
this very not in the musical songbook
not to be replicated.


The Eye in the Hand

There was a man who, in his own way
Touched my soul one cool and sultry day
He showed me an eye in his hand.
Though he was blind by birth, he has an eye
Embedded firmly in palm of hand
So one day, a calm and sunny Sunday day
He grabs me by the lapels and tells me,
So squarely and self-assured
That a blind man still sees darkness without his eyes
What do we use to see?

Even the gods themselves feel stumped by this gambler’s question
Even a fool should know that seeing
Doesn’t end when the lights go low
Something always lingers in the bottom of it all
A thing indescribable, lurking behind every experience.

And can you tell me what it is? He laughs
Eye in hand, hand concealed deep in fist
See the tumble-down, tumbleweed universe
So well planned but ready to burst like
A bubble in the wind, to avail itself and leave us
 all naked and blind.

Czar of Nothing

A walk alone.
watching news in the darkness of night.
smut and blood after 2 am and the smell of ancient smoke.
shocked by the static of VCR,
he finds himself awake in a dream
only to find himself the Czar of Nothing.

he walks out on the balcony of his 2-half star motel
and marvels at the multitude of red cars
counting the ones he can spot through fault-finding
fact -absorbing telescopes
in time to table it in Volume 7 of the Great Unread.

the women and men, they are mostly devotees of the modern life
they plan their vacations with measuring spoons
he thumbs a grand salute to their efforts and gives them a smile
then heads for the Continental Road-side breakfast of corn on the cob
wearing his cleanest dungarees and a fez to top things off

and wishes those tourists he had the dream
still embedded in this time-piece, on schedule
and wishes to keep track of something
like the prisoner who counts his days with fine strokes of chalk

and still he sees them passing by to their destinations out in the sun
 desiring to be lord of someone
the tv has a control as well, which he seeks to turn off
and surrenders to the desert of the unconquered land.